The mechanisms of hope

If you asked me one year ago about my plans for the year ahead, I wouldn’t have known how to answer. My year 2018 started with an overall feeling of uncertainty. On one hand, my family in Puerto Rico was struggling with the devastation left by hurricane Maria, that hit the island months before on September 2017. For which attempting to communicate with them from Italy while trying to figure out ways to help from the distance, were among the most frustrating things I have experienced in my life. On the other hand, after many years of study and experimentation, I was starting to share with the public some of my pottery work, and all I could feel was… hesitant. Every piece I made started with lots of love and hard work, and then, at some point I refused to see the beauty in all my results. I was experiencing for the first time in my life an enormous fear to go ahead that started triggering various episodes of self-sabotage.

What happened then, in 2018?

With time, patience, and lots of hard work, my family in Puerto Rico started overcoming the difficulties of the devastation, adapting to new ways of normalcy. Little by little, over the phone, the sound of their laughs started replacing the stories of loss and tragedy that followed the hurricane. With lots of sacrifice, and resilience, they started building stronger houses, assembling new dreams…

What about me, and my ceramic project?

Well, with the help of my husband and a dear friend called Anna, I decided to believe more in myself, in my capacity to conceive beautiful and meaningful things… I chose to leave behind the fear of failure, and I vowed to remain true to my creative instinct, even when that means that I have to start from scratch over, and over again…

Last year was the year that set in motion a different, beautiful, mechanism of continuity. From this, many wonderful things started to build up: new ideas, stronger friendships, and a more determined version of myself, ready to set off to the new experiences awaiting for me in 2019, with a solid feeling of trust guiding my creative process and the way I live every moment of my life.

Welcome 2019! I’m ready for you!

An image of some of my stoneware creations (Scottie cookie jars, teapots, spoon holders, etc.), displayed at a Christmas event in Florence, Italy.  Photographed by Andrea Prologo

An image of some of my stoneware creations (Scottie cookie jars, teapots, spoon holders, etc.), displayed at a Christmas event in Florence, Italy.

Photographed by Andrea Prologo